When we’re avoidantly attached to God, we choose to go it alone rather than to offer our needs and feelings to our Abba. At some point in your religious upbringing it may have been communicated, however subversively, that to have dark emotions means you are not close to God, forcing you to choose between emotional honesty or relationship. You may have also grown up believing that God does not want you to feel bad feelings, so you pretend they aren’t there in the name of Jesus. Sadly it is easier to trust in a belief system than it is to risk emotional honesty and intimacy with God.
